Cigarette

August 26, 2023

Saint Augustine, Fl

It was a mistake the first time I touched one because two years later they are what I pick up when i am lonely. At first it was just for fun, I didn’t think i would smoke another one and another one, and now I am stuck trying to convince myself it’s still just for fun. I only smoke them when I am drunk. I have started thinking about them sober and to be honest I have even smoked one sober. They are better drunk though, more fun. I have never been able to decline when one is offered. I am always quick to accept. I know they are bad for me but part of me doesnt care. I really enjoy them when they are around. I despise them when they are not. After a night spent with them the smoke seems to linger longer than I would like and they always leave a bad taste in my mouth. Maybe I should take that as a sign. This is worse than I thought. Now that I think about it, you remind me of a cigarette.